still anxious but keeping the faith and staying positive

[Ladyrocker]

The sperm donor dropped off letters today at my job and my job is strict so I would have had to wait to read them. I was a mess. They let me go in the ladies room and read them. He dropped them off crying and I was like "what?" He said it does not sound good. After getting home (I got a letter too)(im sure it's the last one) I felt pretty good after re-reading them. He got hurt again and said in his fathers' letter that he does not want to disappoint me or his dad and that he is going to try his best but did not know if he could and that he was sorry for that. (he injured his knee again but the right one this time) After going through the letter with the dates and time frame I figured out his had a root canal on Tuesday, which he was not concerned about and obviously everything went ok other than having to make up stuff that he missed. He also mentions that his final PFA would be today (Thursday) and he feared he would not pass it because his knee was just hurt and it was bothering him pretty bad. It is 9pm hear and "no news is good news" so I will go with that and assume he passed his last PFA today! God I hope so. He wrote some more things like how sorry he would be and feel if he did not graduate and that he would reimburse us the money we have put out already for accommodations! (how sweet that was and well it broke my heart in two). In my letter he put that he was glad I had all the info I would need for PIR and that I probably would not be getting one but that he put our 4 names down for guests at PIR. In my letter I could not be more proud! Crying half the night and not sleeping well and working a 9 hour stressful shift today......my letter put tears of joy. On top of him earning a 3rd class swimmer/a ribbon for sharp shooting and a ribbon for markinspike he his division (forget your SR's division right now) but the division got a scholar flag (doing well on the 1 st test) and an inspection flag for (overall score on the 1st inspection)they got a 4.95 highest being 5.0..He said he would get another Monday that just passed for (drill flag). and that they have a chance to have a score of 4.7 or higher that they we will be "hall of fame division" that is very hard to get but that they have a good chance of getting. He told me they took pictures in their dress uniforms. He does not think he is the best looking guy with short hair (he is a rocker like mom and always wore it long) but he said "it's hard to look bad in the uniform"! And them the "Big ONE"! he got ranked up from an E-1 to and E-2! and that he will have a patch on his arm during graduation with 2 stripes!!!!!  All that being said/typed "no news is good news" and can not wait til BS are over and get the "I am a sailor call" which I am anticipating to be no longer than Tuesday of next week....One proud momma right now.....still worrying though....how could I not until this is all over and he is off to school in Groton!   

[Ladyrocker]

Thanks Jim......I can not calm down. Any call at this point can go either way. set back or I am a Sailor. Either way it is going to be very emotional. I hope he is just doubting himself and makes it. His PIR is next Friday.