Boot camp is over. The experience we had in post PIR liberty was priceless and quite comforting. There have been differences during this period even at a far. The muted communication gave a synthetic stress like no other. Differences did occur and have only become partially resolved, mostly by concession. We are in love. Are we in love with the idea of being in love or is it the real deal?
I figured I would not end the relationship or permanently engage during this artificially stressful time. Sailorette wants to commit to a eternal bond through this tough time, which is hard to ignore,yet still hard to acknowledge. Ultimately I am totally game. But, there are still differences yet to be worked out. Is such urgency brought on by youth? I don’t know. To permanently commit with small differences in the rafters is obviously of some concern. The element of utmost concern is the fact that we want to commit and haven’t been together completely in 10 weeks. I worry this love is just an idea, or only manageable because of distance.
Our love is hot right now, and she wants to strike while the emotions are strong. Is it best for me? And, is it best for her? Should we act on these feelings? What if I delay? Will she not feel I am committed? Having a girlfriend in the service is stressful . You hear one thing but see another. I cant help but wonder if the person serving is so helplessly in it if they can see the same thing.
I am not sure it is right to feel your relationship is only healthy when there has been two and a half months of separation. She tells me she is committed to me and not the service, but the reality is my bed is half empty every night.
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